Whatever will be, will be,

whatever is yours, will be yours

` Leann Loo, I dedicate this to You

my first impressions of her were that she was funky, talkative, out going, hip n hop and totally everything i'm not. in the begining i had no intentions of getting to know her, but then one day at don & grace's engagement party, ee lee kindly introduced me to her. i was like yep, hey whats up.

i dont really know we got into talking more, but as days went by, months went by, our friendship did develop. - surpringly, and unexpectidly! i dont think i've known her for over 3 years, maybe 2 years and a bit, but i can tell you, time has no restraints on this friendship at all.

some say, in order to be close / best friends, you need that longgggnesss that you have known each other for... but i can clearly proclaim that this is not the case... as we get older in life, it becomes harder to make frends, i mean its easy to make those hi bye, frends tat u see at church, life group or work, but to maintain and make sustainable close long term frendships , well they really only come once in a life time, and when u have it, you want to hold on to it, and not let it go. Even though she is insanely outgoing, loves to act in all sorts of dramas, her heart attracted me.... her willingness to listen to my problems, and to advise me... her advise always lifted me up to another level, when i was before skeptical, and then after sharing with her, i felt the encouragement and the light to see things from a different perspective....

she always never fails to share about God, about all the wonderful things He has done, and always never fails to share of her problems whether they be big or small.. she always goes out of her way to help me, and her hubby to be is also a very lovely man and i am insanely overjoyed for them that they are getting married this october....

Her heart for God's people, the never giving up sort of attitude if hardships come, a positive person and a encourager.. always writing me cards, and always filling up those 160 characters in sms's... heheehe... For lending me things and not having a hesitation of distrust or doubt that i would break her stuff.... its the small things that count....but for always saying yes to assist me in any way that she would deem possible. for going out of her way to search for info, for helping me sell stuff, indeed i know that u are a friend i can count on when times get tough, and when trouble arises. you're always there with a helping hand, a caring heart, a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on.... you're one that i love to share all my worries, my happy times and my not so happy times with!

And i just want to thank you for been there for me, for sharing your life with me, for allowing me to be a part of your life. and always know that i'll always be there for you in rain or shine.

cos, thats wat friends are for.

and thats what we'll be forever more

thAnk you, ms Loo. your friendship i hold in my heart and cherish.

Thank God for friends... and thank God for all the great and best friends he has placed around me. =)

` firsts and lasts....

yesterday i had an experience like no other...

becos of THIS:

(Well i THINK its because of this)

i took the foto frm google somewhere... aNYway.. back to my point,, YES.. TEA......not just normal tea kay, but iced hongkong styled milk tea................. oh my gosh... i will never ever drink it again after 5pm...i couldnt sleep the whole night... i thought i slept, but now as i back track i dont think i slept. im UBER CONFUSED.... anyway hence the tiredness nowwwwww but i dont seem to really be able to sleep that early on a friday night... its suppose to be a night to go out or stay up late, and since im not goin out into the freezer outside world i better stay up a wee bit longer since its friday night.

the million dollar question i continue to ask my self:

Did i or Did i not sleep?

I am sooooooooooooooo dungu.

` that was then, and now is now

Finally, found the time to blog. well not really found the time but got off my lazy bum to blog haha..
The long weekend has finally come to a screeching end, and has made me extremely sad and depressed to go back to work tomorrow, haha.. the dread of going to work.. gosh.

Yesterday i went to this Life Line book fest at the convention centre, life line is like a charity that helps the poor or something by selling 2nd hand books for really cheap.. man there were so many books too bad i didnt take a photo. but there were heaps. they were all old dirty and some quite dusty. after looking around for an hour i was already tired and wanted to sleep lol, but h&r love books so much they continued to look at more books lol. as for me, i just was their trolley, just sittting there and lookning after the books, as i am really not that much of a book fan, but i did buy a few books for l as requested.. i am amazed at how much people love books, that they could stay there for more than 3 hours to just look at books... haha, the passions that some poeple have.. for me i think i rather be baking or cooking... or sleeping haha.. or desiging some stuff.. like brochures or posters. i guess it all comes down to what you as an individual like to do in your free time, and some people well just like to read books. it was really funny cos, there was a guy who was kinda like the announcements guy, he would like just be kinda promoting certain books and stuff and was like the guy to go to if u lost your mom or dad after been too engrossed in searching for books.
There was one funny incident that happened i think someone must've been soooo engrossed in looknig at books tat their family had to page him/her and not only once but 3 times! haha...
the announcement guy (Who was dressed up like those tour guides in the jungle) was saying "your family is waiting for you at the counter" and then the 2nd one followed... "your family is waiing for you in the seating area or something like that i cant remember... and then "your family has gone to the car, dont worry they havent left without you they are just waiting for u in the car".... lol it was SO FUNNY...i was really tempted to do that to h&r haha.. just for laughs sake but i didnt.. darn i should've.

Went to see state of Play too, it was pretty good. intense, and confusing but i liked it. i dont like russell crowe though. and i cant understand why some ppl think he is really sexy.

Anyway, with less than 3 months to go for l&j's wedding, i have some SERIOUS shedding of fat to do.......... and its even tougher with this cold weather. how do people find motivation to exercise man, i really wish i had that motivation. i kinda really need it now..
so im back on a diet. I can only eat well in the weekends, and week days will be very mundane boring food for dinner such as JUICE or maybe just vegetables and eggs............ the sacrificies you have to make to be thin! sigh! but i think its worth it, yet i dont know if i can get rid of all the fat in my body.
i think everyone put on weight, looknig back to past photos, i can reallyyyyy see how much weight I HAVE put on and others too lol.. its depressing to see. but i must loose at least 3-5kg before october.. This is the heaviest i've ever been in my life.... its really really bad.
i love food too much, its just always in mind that i want to eat.. this love for food needs to stop immediatleyyyyy!!! i must get back to my old weight!!!!

i even wanted to go on Lite n easy, but it is so expensive. d recommmened Jenny craig in which that reminds me to go and check out thier program i may have to join. haha

Words do no justice to what i am saying , photos they just tell a different story altogheter..


This is me like a few years ago, i think 3 or 4 years....................... OMG.

and this is me now =(


the difference is quite shocking is it not? haha... oh boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
anyway my goal is to make it back to picture number 1.. I must!!!!

the only people that i know who have remained the same till this day are ee lee and lizhi.
everyone else, sorry to say has gone slimmer or put on weight..........

haha, i think age does that to us, and i think now as we are older, our metabolism is gona get slower and slower, therefore making it harder and harder to loose weight!!!

` meet the parents

every time peoples' moms come, i always find tat i am drawn to these older ladies as they are so carefree, so funny and so down to earth. they say the funniest things and make me laugh so much, they cook the nicest food that i gobble down, and they are so nice to talk with even though there are language barriers! haha! and i just want to go and talk to them about anything under the sun. they are so cute and adorable.. hehe.

take for example h's mom, so nice and cute , acutally that is the only example :( haha, and also OH, J's mom, Cl's mom, even K's mom. last time she saw me she just came up to me and hugged me. and now G's mom,, even though i cant speak indo at all, i tried my best to come up wit my words,

our conversation was on the lines of this:

auntie: " (alot of in depth crazy indo)

me: " apa kabar"?, also got, "bagus" ( i think i said to almost everything)

then got, 'suka makan'. however thats spelt and then got satu? dua? and then got cantik...

anyway she understood wat i was trying to say, and went to their place for dinner the other night and yummmmmm the food was GOOD. haha today im not goin to be lazy and i will post the pics. round of applause to me, thanks.

anyway she is going to knit us scarfs so nice lah.............

as L said to me, its good to get to know and make your friends' parents feel welcome, friendship goes beyond just caring for your friends but also caring for the parents too.

i think i have learnt alot in these few years. as i was chatting wit J last night, we have all come a long long way, once all from daniels' group, were these immature snotty nosed, emotional people, but no longer are we that. it is amazing to see how far we have come and how we have grown, and i can indeed testify to some of the amazing breakthroughs that i've seen throughout those years. God is indeed amazing he has brought us this far and will continue to bring us to new heights. sometimes i miss the old daniels group, life group has changed so much since then. we used to be a group of 30 odd people, now we're 15 or so. but none the less, life changes, people move on, people get married, and people move away - these are the things i have come to learn to adjust to over these years as well.

it has been an interesting journey.. and one that i think will continue till we all grow old and hairy and wrinkly... all the great frends i know now i want to hold and cherish till we all go to heaven, cos your friendship means the world to me.

our cake that we baked togheter..... although not as successful as i hoped it would be. it was a bit hard :( boo....but none the less, edible and nice :) creme pat cake as MY calls it....

okay i can only upload one more photo cos this is way too tedious for me.. i shall facebook the rest!

now i need to go and fix all the spacing.. oh those photos took me one milliion light years to upload!!!

Terima kasih bibi untuk makanan dan syal enak!!! (my lousy copied attempt)

I am counting down to the next long weekend which is the Queens birthday Long weekend that will be on the 8th June 2009, every year i Thank the Queen deeply for having a birthday that we all here in australia have the previledge and honour to celebrate :D cos it means A DAY OFF WORK!! :D I always wished for the queen to have many more celebrations or maybe the princes or the princess's to... but no such luck.. after queens birthday the next public holiday will be in august, Ekka.. omg. that is tragic! :(

sometimes i cant understand weird and demented people.. people that think all the weird things in the world and think that i would stop blogging cos of HIM/HER.. ha, please loh, u think ur so important meh..... you have no signifiance in my life and to me you are invisible, so NO i would NEVER STOP BLOGGING COS OF YOU!!!!

Man, winter is super grose, actually its not even winter but its really cold :(. i cant wait to snuggle up in my bed....

anyway, I have fully booked my wonderful and expensive expensive expensive ticket to malaysia and singapore at the end of the year, i regret that i did not book it sooner (i thought i would wait for sales etc but none !!!) i could've saved $300 bucks.... anyway too bad for that. tickets have been booked and i will be landing in the great land of clean, sunny, safe singapore on the 10th of December 2009,i shall be travelling in style on Singapore airlines the best airlines in the world hoho..... :D and i will be eating hokkien mee ImMMMMMMEDIATELY wen i land , clarissa has agreed to take me to every hokkien mee stall in singapore hahhaha.... man i cant wait, am gonna have the time of my life... shopping, eating, meeting old frends again :D then on the 16th i'm off to KL, malaysia - the land that is truly asia. haha, will be staying wit lizhi/eeelee until the 20th then heading to stay wit popo till the 26th after chuilians wedding the spending the last few days with julie i will be back in boring australia on new years eve.. heh.. i think this will be last trip back for a while unless someone gets married and im forced to go back again next year i really want to go somewhere different like USA .... J, cl, and i discussed it when i was in melbourne and we all said we wanted to go next year, so we shall see how it goes...

I have been sleeping alot lately.... like really earlytoo 9 ish, i think the weather forces me into bed.

im content wit life at the moment. it has it's lows, but the highs keep you going on!

` never say idontknow!

today i learnt a lesson, never say i dont know to the boss especially when he is in a bad mood.. today i experienced scolding from him, he over heard me saying 'i dont know how to do that' to a colleague and thats when world war 3 started,

he looked as though he wanted to slice me in quarters chop me mince me and cook me into stew!!! he CLEARLY knows that is not part of my job description yet he says U SHOULD KNOW IT, U SIT NEXT TO *The girl who is suppose to do it* who was away today..

i was thinking to my self, oh yep so i sit there and always look At her doing her work without me doing MY work? anyway today i felt so stressed cos i had to do some of her tasks, and half of which she had not taught me or whatever so i just tried to do them ... and at least the day zoomed by, i thought i 'd have a cruisy day been friday and all, but it was stressful.. anyway from this day on i will ensure to know nearly everything she does, and asking her to teach me everyhrting so that that he does not yell again... everyone sure kena sometimes.. he has been picking on this fella for a while, and now clearly hes done and moved on to me. ...... he has tendancys to make ppl cry, he told his girl off and she cried.. oh boo :(

the feeling of Not knowing how to do things makes me feel so incapable.. i wish to know how to do everything but unforautnely i dont... but the feeling is grose!

anyway my good frriday turned into a bad one.. but now i m gona put this all behind me and move on, cos thats what ur suppose to do rite.. move on. forget yesterday and move on wit tomorrow.

on a lighter note,

we watched a dvd tongiht at life group called indescribable it was really nice! it was about our universe, how God made it so wonderfully and how sMALL and MINISCULE we are compared to the universe. and yes i learnt many interesting facts of how small we really are, and yes are all just ONE speck of dust..... we dont need to feel small, cos we are small.

but even though we r so small, God knows each and every one of us and loves us!!! THANK YOU GOD... u are the best. no one can compare to You.

You are the KING of my heart..

` the little instruction book

came across a book today lying on my table. some great quotes and wisdom to live by.

"It is far more important to BE the right kind of person than it is to marry the right kind of person"

it says if you treat the wrong person like the right person, you could end up having married the right person,and on the other hand if you marry the right person and treat them wrong, you certainly will end up with the wrong person....

i really strongly tink that there is no such thing as the 'right' person.... so a big TICK i agree wit what it says!


"Alot of people have gone further than they thought they could because someone else thought they could"

You never know what one word of encouragement can do for someone.... so never hesitate to give it. that one small positive comment or encouragement could make the world of difference to someone who may be going through a tough time.. words of encouragement dont cost us a cent, so i will begin to give it freely when i think is appropriate..

anyway there are heaps of other motivational quotes in there, that have stirred up something in me! words always do that, especially powerful ones.

as popo always says, words can make or break you.
or something like that anyway..

another good one: don't cry because its over, smile because it happened.

` hot water youre my best friend

was suppose to blog a while ago , but was completley lazy and forgot!!! boo me..

anyway, today i totally realise how important it is to have HOT water to shower...
today the gas and the hot water decided that it would not work! yes , strangely enough our gas and hot water are linked, and the crappy useless gas company forgot to come and fill the gas tank up!!!! talk about unreliability, sigh... so there i was waiting to cook dinner and trying to turn the stove on, but to no avail. then there was no hot water, i was mildy tempted to drive to my parent's place for some hot water on my cold skin, but i couldnt be bothered to drive the 15-20 mins there and back, that would've been a good 40 minutes for a round trip!

so i decided to be brave, and go for a cold shower in this freezing weaather.... i grabbed the heater, and jumped into the shower, it took a while to acutally get soaping, shampooing, cos it was just SOOOO Cold.. i jumped around continously inside, so that i woudln't feel cold, it was so cold i tell you so cold until at the end i dint know if i was hot or humb, cos i coudlnt feel anyhting... i washed my hair, soaped, and made it out of there alive haha... even in summer i dont even shower wit freezing water, yet alone that we are approaching winter.... oh anyway i feel cleaner, and WARM now..

so after tonight, i really really appreciate hot water - its the simple things in life that keep us happy. and water is one of them. water, toilet paper and tissue paper. they're my godsends'.

on a separate note, i wanted to blog about my small car incident that happened last thursday in good old sunnybank plaza.. my poor old chad yaris toyota silver was crashed into!!! :( POOR THHING.... but anyyway it wasnt a bad crash at all, i was just in the car park looking for a car park (i mean wat else could u do in car parks anyway?) , and suddendly this car backs out of her car space.... and im thinking "dude, did u see me"?

anyway so i continue to stare at her car, and then i was like DUDE CANT U SEE ME?? so i like horned at this car to stop!!! BUT this car did not stop! instead the next thing i heard was a loud bang on the front of my car door........... oh boy, fury shot right through me , fury and shock! i was like oh no :( my beloved car :( Not the carrr.... then she got out and she also was kinda shocked and was saying "oh i m sorry, i didnt see you" i was thinking to my self , ARE U BLIND LADY? I WAS RIGHT BEHIND YOU.....

but indeed i restrained myslef... anyway she was very apologetic and kept sayig sorry, and then we just took down numbers and stuff and went on our merry ways.. i went to meet mel for lunch and told her all about it,then she suggested i rang my insurnace asap.. so that is what i did.... i rang, and they asked many ridiculous questions but i tink they were all pretty mandatory...

so i spent a good 20 minutes on the phone with them explaining all that had happened,
and some funny questions they asked were:

"did any animals get hurt"

anyway, i forgotton, but alot of weird questions that i was like errr No to.. anyway there are just a few dents and scratches, apart from that its all good. the hassle is goin to get it fixed.. i will be carless for 3 or 4 days :(

anyway, i think God taught me alot from this incident as i shared in my life group last week... Sometimes i felt that I hold on to the things of this world too tightly ie: my car, my computer, or whatever it may be, that when somethig happnes to them, we just couldn't function anymore, or we'd be so pissed, so mad, and just agro at the world............ but after this i learnt to let go of the love for my car... i do, i admit love my car alot, its such a good car to me, brought me to many places... but I know GOd is saying, dont hold on to such temporal things of this world, but hold on to those eternal things... - God i agree wit you! i will try and learn to!!

but no matter what, every time i drive i always ask for protection and covering upon my self and my car.. i beleive detailed prayers are ones that work! and He is Faithful.. he has kept me safe from all sorts of accidents out there.. There have been many many times where i could've had car accidents but because of His Protection.. well he protected me. as careful a driver as i may be, wreckless drivers are everywhre on the roads, and we have no control over them at all.
i really pray that people will become more resonsibile drivers, looknig out for the welfare of other drivers, to not speed, and to not cause road rage........

it is so important to pray for protection and covering when driving. Driving is a risk, when we get into that car, we are kinda like risking our lifes, cos we really dont know what could happen.

but our God is great; and His protection is upon us always.

` Ghosts of Girlfriends Past

i went to see this movie. i enjoyed it. matthew was of cousre looking as dashing as ever, but the story line was really funny, and yeah its just like any one of those chic flicks out there haha.. but i think everyone can watch a chic flick once in a blue moon... this guy is a womanizing jerk, who sleeps with just about all the girls, then breaks up wit them a few days later.. he then has to attend his kid bro's wedding where he kinda says some stuff then the wedding is cancellled.. there he is met by his ex gf's and all the ghosts of his past... anyawy to cut the long story short - well go and watch it lah.. but apart from that, guys like this, who cant commit, it just means one thing, they fear commitment,they fear been in love because they fear giving/loving too much and in the end they just get heart... thats why they have a cool front and a 'couldnt be bothered' attitude. these are the people who have been hurt so badly in the past, that they build up a wall so that they can never be hurt liike that again... anyway that is my analysis.

so the moral of this story?? (EVERY even chic flicks have morals :D, or a meaning), okay the meaning of this story is... Never half heartidly give love, love with all your heart and with all your might... you may get hurt, but been in love means to hurt sometimes, and if u havnet hurt, u really haven't been in love at all..

good movieeeee yay, i liked it much better than wolverine, but then again its a wholle different category altogheter!!!!

` Hello world! I'm still alive!

rejoice, rejoice and again i say rEjoICE!

i am back... dont know if thats a thing to rejoice upon, but yes.. i have been on bloggin hiatus for like emm 1 month plusplus..... but tonight i feel kinda in the mood to blog!

i got back from melbourne a week ago, and had a really great time catching up with my close friends, meeting new people and old people and eatin,eating,eating!!!! the photos are on face book and i shall not post them here cos there are like 1001 photos and yes i am too lazy to upload and place them in the correct position in this blog. it was a great time to relax, eat, talk, laugh and have heaps of fun wit j,cl, lz... we ate like no other... we like constantly ate.. from breakfast to morning tea to lunch to afternoon tea to dinner to supper.... there were just not enough hours in the day to chomp down all of melbournes great food! to do that i think i need to move there! i dint get to try old town kopitiam, the one tat i really desperatley wanted to try and a few other places... boo.. next time i must try.. shopping was great, if only there was more money in the wallet.. it would be much better, but cant ask for too much now can i.

i have great fears for this swine flu that is going around.... i even wanted to wear a mask on the plane, i even brought a mask with me actually the day i was gonna leave for melbourne i went to get a flu vax, even though the doctor was explaining to me that this swine flu and the flu vax are 2 totally different strands of viruses , the flu vax will NOT i repeat NOT protect me from swine, She said that at least at least if i got swine i wont die! - such comforting words from the doc... okay it made me feel slightly better that i wouldnt die..... and so i toook the vax and paid the $25 for it and walked out feeling slightyl more protected... then i decided to go to the chemist to buy a mask, and yes if you can imagine they were all sold out!! so i thought yeah there are also mcuh more paranoid people than me out there! so i called mom for help and she managed to scab some from her clinic! hehe. so there i was totally prepared to go to melbourne and prepared not to catch the swine flu.... i was going to wear the mask on the plane if other people were wearing it but yes no one was so i did not too!!! anyway as i sat down in virgin blues uncomfortable, hard and small confined space of a seat, i started to sneeze, and blow my nose, and i did that for the 2 hours of the flight!!!! and im pretty sure everyone thought i had swine, cos i got some weird glares from across my seat! oh well. my sinus just causes me way too many problems, but in june hopefully all that will disppear :D hooraay....

j, e, and z have moved back to brisbane.. its great , Z is so cute, i wnat to cuddle him all day hehe.. he is big for a 1 year old though, but so so soooooooo adorable.. ow..

tomorrow is mother's day, happy mothers day mom... even though i was a rebellious teenager/child you still were always there for me and loved me unconditionally, helped me and supported me through all things..... thank you.

cant wait to go to church tomorrow, felt like i havnt been in ages..i always enjoy to dwell in the presence of God. it is such a great feeling.

` life is beautiful..

Life is short

Break the rules

forgive quickly

kiss passionately,

love truly

laugh constantly

And never stop smiling no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected to be but as long as we are here,

we should smile and be grateful.

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i think the above holds so much truth! no matter what hurdles life throws your way, always aim to remain positive in all circumstances, no matter how hard it may be... for indeed we do not know which day will be our last, but if we did not live life the way it's suppose to be lived, we would regret it.

enjoy the moments with loved ones and friends

cos no matter what shit life pulls out at you,

at the end of the day,

life is beautiful.

` leading. vibrant. global

its easter weekend! wahoo, i wish it would last forever...

i've been reading breaking dawn faithfully every night before i sleep, it is somewhat surprisingly so good!!!

no will to blog also.

but got a bit of will. i guess since im here

i really shouldnt drink soft drink - im drinking sprite now and have started to sneeze already.

im going for my operation on 22nd of june finally there was an opening for me.. so i will be free from all this sinus crap :D

on friday baked with M and M haha m&ms! it was really tiring even tho i dint really bake i took down a whole heap of notes. man M is a perfectionist...... the cake was delicious.. too bad i couldnt take some of the cheesecake home cos it was still in the oven by the time i left, it was like in there for a good 5 hours ++. anyway i think baking is quite fun, so i will be expermenting with many different recipes in time to come. today i even went to buy a whisk and a weighing scale for the flour, sugar, and what not.

there are photos but a bit lazy to post. cos havnt uploaded it to the compt and somemore blogger is so crap when posting up so i'll do that another time..

i realised i am a home person. well becomnig one very much - i cant seem to go out for like the whole day or i'll just feel really exhasuted and want to come home and sleep. i guess that is a sign of im getting older :( oh boo that. but these weeks i've really been enjoying my alone time at home just watching my dramas, and reading my book. i could do this every day! haha
i realise how important your alone personal time is, i mean of course been around your friends, close frends lovely frends is great but i think we all need that alone time. just meee and the creepy idiotic lizards.

time seems to be moving by pretty quickly, and am prettty glad about that.. the scent of melbourne is indeed drawing nearer and nearer each day..

there are not many public holidays left this year which is really gutting.

the queen should really have a birthday every month and i'd happily take a day to celebrate that :D

well not really anything much to say,

so happy easter may we all remember the true meaning of this long public weekend holiday.

` the twilight obsesssion

I've decided that Blogger is such an unfriendly place to upload photos.......I would love to upload more photos, but it just spells out TEDIOUS... because everytime u want to upload it, it always goes to the front then if u want to write, then post a photo, then write you would have to drag the photo down, and then your layout for the text distorts, and everyting just goes downhill.. so today the photos are at the top becos of my laziness to fiddle around with blogger!!! blogger, you are good to blog in, but u totally SUCK to want to paste photos in! BOO, can you please improve in this area...........

anyway, this twilight obsession has some what increased drastically, i have now watched it 3 times, and am now reading the book?!??!?!?! (what the heck, since when do i read?!), miracles do happen.....

i borrowed the book frm J, its like a 700 page book, i really dont know how im ever going to finish it, it takes me like 1 year to even get thru a 300 page book, now let alone a 700 page.. sheesh but i tink the story line will be very interesting and i can let my imagaination run wild! oh, edward is just so handsome and bella is very pretty.. today i found out that there are like 3 sequels for the twilight series, omg, how happy was i to find out that antoher twilight movie will be releaseed in november this year! i was estatic!! wahoo!

i thnk i love vampries cos deep down i felt as if im a vamprie hahaha, cos i love the dark, hate the light..

edward is only good lookin in this movie though. in reality hes not. bella is both good loookin in movie and reality.

i guess twilight is such a captivating story about love.... and also, i love it cos, their love is not based on sex (which most worldy r/s's are these days) but really based on getting to know each other, talking alot, etc , i think thats what true relationships are meant to be about. talking, an gettin to know the other, without the element of sex in it.. these days sex is just pasted and branded in our souls.. its wat the world knows and loves to do.

i think bella and edwards love story is one of the greatest love stories of all time..... one of my most fav movies.... is this! and i cant wait for twilight 2,3,4... i think i will have to w ait for another 3 years to see twilight 4,,,,, BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THAT. but i'll be patient and wait.........

1005 thumbs up for bella and eddy..

on a side note, life is pretty quiet, pleasant, and nice at times. sometimes its not.. esp monday , i dread it so much, i wish i just would not dread it, but i DO i DO! oh i wish those monday blues would just dissapear for ever..

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I feel a sense of achievement tonight


i finALLLLLY after 1 month, washed my car.

HOORAY.

it feels so CLEAN.

so very clean..... squeeky clean........ never felt cleaner before.

when the car is clean i feel clean too. wahooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

` the hips and the haps

wahooooooooooooooooooooo, i've decided to procrastinate no more and blog after one week of no blogging.


what a week its been, actually i had 2 things i wanted to blog about that were sitting in my draft folder, but i'm still not going to blog bout them yet haha...


H&R left for malaysia on wed, oh boy, it was such a sad departure for me haha, that meant been home alone. bu huhu, but acutally im gettin quite used to it, so its okay.. of cousre i miss them so much and i hope these 2 weeks will go really fast, but of cousre murphy's law indeed states that it will go all the more slower cos now i want it to be fast ......... sigh , life hey


G has been baking alot of cakes and stuff and pastries and giving to me and H&R, they are really delicious and really fattening. BOO To the fattening part, YUM to the delicious part...... which in turn has got me to want to bake cakes. so im going to try next weekend...... attempt to make something edible i hope.


antoher month till i go to melbourne, wahooo i cant wait... so need to get away even if its only for a few days...


L came and stayed over on fri & sat, we had a very enjoyable time yakking away, goin out all day on sat to check out the venue for her big day and just hanging and chilling and watching some lame dvd's. watched twilight again with her and Fell in love with edward all over again!!! sheesh, he is so hot.......... its the eyes....... they are so seductive and his character and face just makes you fall in love with him time and time again!!!!!! not to mention the chic is pretty too :)

isn't he just divine and so fine?! I Tink its the eyebrows too. woot woot!!! hes absolutely delicious..

the weekend passes by in the blink of an eye, and monday always appears faster than ever, so depressing.

went to koorong on sat and bought the chris tomlin cd - see the morning i really wanted it cos of the amazing grace song - tat song is very very nice indeeed... met a few church ppl in koorong, i kinda melted ....... eh L? haha..

little singapore is doing renovations so cant eat there till like the 8th of april?! BOO THEM!

i love beyonce's song halo and single girls.. i've been listening to them on repeat for the last few days and will continue to do so until i get totally sick of them.

i've been bitten by mossies yet again they just never seem to wana leave me alone those dam bugs.

finally downloaded skype, (well L did for me) , so now me n J can have a good old chat on it.

sometimes i wana live in a dream , a fantasy far away from reality, cos sometimes reality is just a cruel place to be in.

i'll just continue to live in my edward fantasy for a few more days..

but reality is sometimes too real.too heart breaking.too dramatic.too emotional.and too much at times.

my bed's calling me. i'm going to answer it.

` blogging should be kept in the virtual world

i was meant to blog about this last thursday when i met M for lunch, but got distracted, and lazy and all other things.

as my title says, blogging should be kept in the virtual realms... I've come up with a new realisation along with M, who agrees strongly.

Blogs should NOT be discussed in public, they should not even be mentioned as you maybe casually have lunch together with a friend....

If you have a question in regards to a post, that is why there is a comment section or a shout box to ask, you cant ask in person!!!

the blogging world and the real world is 2 separate worlds - i want my blog to stay on my blog and in the virtual world where as the real world to discuss and talk about other things.

last week i was gonna ask someone something in their blog and right as my words came out, i forgot my new found realisation and i coudlnt take back my words but i mangaged to change the subject quickly so that the blog would be forgotton.

blog - you are a sanctuary to throw up on

you are a place to just write any odd and wonderful crap

you are a place where i can be emotional

you are a place where i can complain

you are a place where i can laugh

you are a place where i can be sad

you are a place where i can be happy

.. so please dont bring my blog up in person, if you do i will be blur and say

" what blog?"

` amazing grace

the above video, is very nice, please watch.

the lyrics of the song are even nicer..

Amazing grace How sweet the sound That saved a wretch like me

I once was lost, but now I'm found Was blind, but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear And grace my fears relieved

How precious did that grace appear The hour I first believed

My chains are gone I've been set free

My God, my Savior has ransomed me And like a flood His mercy rains

Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me His word my hope secures

He will my shield and portion beAs long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow

The sun forbear to shine But God, Who called me here below

Will be forever mine

Will be forever mine

You are forever mine

As we sung this song in church today, it sent shivers up and down my body the entire song. i just wanted to dwell in the presence of God for longer and longer..... the words spoke to my heart and i was instantly captured and drawn by its lyrics.

how amazing is God's grace, that he decided to save each and every one of us? what a wretch i am, but yet He chose to forgive me... sometimes i think i forget about the grace of God going on in my daily life, i become so indulged in worldy matters, and sinful acts, that i forget the grace of God... i forget that i am not on this earth for eternity, i forget many tings...... i have to keep reminding my self, that i am not going to be here for ever, i am indeed goin to spend eternity with Him up in heaven. why is it so, that we hold on so tightly to the things of the world, when we should be holding much more tightly to the things of eternity? why is it so that we dislike some people and wish horrible things on them, or that we are not satisfied with our lifes, that we are always wanting that little bit more. why cant we just be satisfied wit the life God has placed in our hands?

every day is a battle, a struggle, - especially monday. haha, but i wish it not to be. i wish every day to be a joyful and happy day, where i can just seek God whole heartedly. i'm far from perfect and i find it so challenging to even sit down for 20 or 30 minutes and spend time with God. it is my hearts desire to spend time with Him, to make time for Him... to fellowship with Him and His people even. i wish to be a person who does not complain so much, and i wish to be a person who does not slander or gossip about others. i wish to be a person who does not have impure thoughts. and all these and so much more, but i know one day they will all come to pass, becos by His Grace i am saved.

to Live a life for Jesus, is everything

At the end of the day, your car, your house, your money, your clothes, all these will not be brought into heaven. i want to live with no regrets, i dont want to be sad, or depressed, or unhappy with situations or people in my life - i want to look past all that, and look to the greater picture.

i fall, i continously fall, i say i want to change, and banish all these bad habits, these sins in my life, but i fall.. and i continue to fall, i keep falling and i know that i will still fall, but indeed i am reminded of a sentance in the sermon that really struck a chord in my heart.

' God's grace is not a licence to sin'.

sometimes, we just take for granted God's grace, we know its there and we know He will always forgive us when we continue to sin..... but do we sin purposely knowing that He will forgive us? or are we really really sorry that we've sinned? i think i am such a sinful person that it will be so hard to not sin time and time again, but i know that i will do my best to not commit the same sin over and over. sinful in nature, the devil knows my weakness and always strikes me light lightening and thunder. been a christian does not mean been perfect, but wit God's help, we are moulded to become more like Him.

you are my Portion. my deliverer. my strong hold in times of trouble.

its you i will seek, when times are bleak

and when i'm feeling so weak

Its you i turn to, and its you whom i want to meet

the devil i will defeat

because you o Lord, make me feel complete.

` aches and pains

helped move alot of CRAP from the old office to the new one, and today i am officially sore... i have the sorest arms which in turn shows that i am very VERY unfit and very very yes, unfit :(

i realised theres so much going on with people these days, the world is really at a lost cause..

i just recently found out that barack obama may not be the man we all hoped and dreamed and came to love..... such a handsome man, with such brilliain speechs, ofc can win the hearts of many.. but now he has approved stem cell research or something.. which means that he believes in killing unborn babies, with this stem cell thingy been approved... and many other speculations too.

and apparnetly australia is the NEXT target for terriorist attacks - great eh. well dont think we'd be attacked in brisbane, we dont have any significant land marks or anything - maybe the ferris wheel at southbank? i think these terrorists are more likely to strike sydney or melbourne. gosh, so hope to still be alive at year end then.

heard from a friend, tat her colleague died the other day, which is totally like wth... he committed suicide cos his wife left him.. to imagine you sat near that colleague, talked to that person, joked with that person... shared the same project with that person and now that person is dead??

where is the justice in this world

and a colleague of mine, just recently got into a nasty nasty and i mean nasty divorce. his ex is psycho, threatening him , then in the end last week she just packed up the whole house, took the 2 kids while he was out , and disappeared, she wont take his calls or contact him at all.......... which is depressing for him,cos they are his kids - wat a iresponsible mom... to allow this to happen to her kids , its the dads right to be able to see them.. and now he does not know where they are. and hes very depressed, hasnt been to work for the whole week.

all the more, i need to pray for him... pray that his situation will turn around. people are just filled with so many problems in life, problem after problem after problem.. when does it ever end.

i think i should do charity work - like go to africa and help the poor kids.

` this quiz is meant for taking!

i took the quiz on PL's blog. it was rather fascinating, cos some parts are quite accurate so it seems.. Po, we are the same in some areas, but others totally OPPOSITE......... as they say opposites attract right? haha.. :p

i dont quite understand why this quiz is so accurate, but as i thought about it i think they have previously gathered information (statistics) and then linked it to the type of answers you would answer, so thats why the answers come up as they are..Yes, some of them hold much truth, but some dont at all.. its just what the median range of people think that is how the answer is portrayed into your 'personality'.

as accurate as they may be, answering questions sometimes means to be tactful in the way u answer, ahha, but i answered from the heart, and these are the answers i got :)

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

yes, i half agree with this one! i am straight forward and like straight forward ppl, i dont like people that like to beat around the bush.. get to the point would ya.. on the problem solver listening to arguments indeed i do listen haha but i tink i maybe a bit tend to side my frends... bad..

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

yes, i tink this is true, when im deep in love, i will do anything for the one i truly love..

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

this is true too...

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

This is, what the? flirt.. i dont!!!! im serious about choosing, but if i dont find that guy right, i wont bother...

Your views on education:

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

This is indeed very true, i believe education is important but not that important.. experience is what gets you the job.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

yes yes , true to a certain extent...

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

yes, failure is a scary thing esp when money is involved..

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

True , theres really no one i can fully rely on for help.. apart from God of course.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

hmmm.. matters of the heart are complicated.. haha, i think i think wit my heart more than my head. which is sometimes bad...

yes, half of this is true

all in all, it was a nice quiz, that held alot of truths.. i love quizes acutally.. to see how accurate or not accurate they are! if you have any more, sendddd to me i will glady partake :)