Whatever will be, will be,

whatever is yours, will be yours

` Leann Loo, I dedicate this to You

my first impressions of her were that she was funky, talkative, out going, hip n hop and totally everything i'm not. in the begining i had no intentions of getting to know her, but then one day at don & grace's engagement party, ee lee kindly introduced me to her. i was like yep, hey whats up.

i dont really know we got into talking more, but as days went by, months went by, our friendship did develop. - surpringly, and unexpectidly! i dont think i've known her for over 3 years, maybe 2 years and a bit, but i can tell you, time has no restraints on this friendship at all.

some say, in order to be close / best friends, you need that longgggnesss that you have known each other for... but i can clearly proclaim that this is not the case... as we get older in life, it becomes harder to make frends, i mean its easy to make those hi bye, frends tat u see at church, life group or work, but to maintain and make sustainable close long term frendships , well they really only come once in a life time, and when u have it, you want to hold on to it, and not let it go. Even though she is insanely outgoing, loves to act in all sorts of dramas, her heart attracted me.... her willingness to listen to my problems, and to advise me... her advise always lifted me up to another level, when i was before skeptical, and then after sharing with her, i felt the encouragement and the light to see things from a different perspective....

she always never fails to share about God, about all the wonderful things He has done, and always never fails to share of her problems whether they be big or small.. she always goes out of her way to help me, and her hubby to be is also a very lovely man and i am insanely overjoyed for them that they are getting married this october....

Her heart for God's people, the never giving up sort of attitude if hardships come, a positive person and a encourager.. always writing me cards, and always filling up those 160 characters in sms's... heheehe... For lending me things and not having a hesitation of distrust or doubt that i would break her stuff.... its the small things that count....but for always saying yes to assist me in any way that she would deem possible. for going out of her way to search for info, for helping me sell stuff, indeed i know that u are a friend i can count on when times get tough, and when trouble arises. you're always there with a helping hand, a caring heart, a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on.... you're one that i love to share all my worries, my happy times and my not so happy times with!

And i just want to thank you for been there for me, for sharing your life with me, for allowing me to be a part of your life. and always know that i'll always be there for you in rain or shine.

cos, thats wat friends are for.

and thats what we'll be forever more

thAnk you, ms Loo. your friendship i hold in my heart and cherish.

Thank God for friends... and thank God for all the great and best friends he has placed around me. =)

` firsts and lasts....

yesterday i had an experience like no other...

becos of THIS:

(Well i THINK its because of this)

i took the foto frm google somewhere... aNYway.. back to my point,, YES.. TEA......not just normal tea kay, but iced hongkong styled milk tea................. oh my gosh... i will never ever drink it again after 5pm...i couldnt sleep the whole night... i thought i slept, but now as i back track i dont think i slept. im UBER CONFUSED.... anyway hence the tiredness nowwwwww but i dont seem to really be able to sleep that early on a friday night... its suppose to be a night to go out or stay up late, and since im not goin out into the freezer outside world i better stay up a wee bit longer since its friday night.

the million dollar question i continue to ask my self:

Did i or Did i not sleep?

I am sooooooooooooooo dungu.

` that was then, and now is now

Finally, found the time to blog. well not really found the time but got off my lazy bum to blog haha..
The long weekend has finally come to a screeching end, and has made me extremely sad and depressed to go back to work tomorrow, haha.. the dread of going to work.. gosh.

Yesterday i went to this Life Line book fest at the convention centre, life line is like a charity that helps the poor or something by selling 2nd hand books for really cheap.. man there were so many books too bad i didnt take a photo. but there were heaps. they were all old dirty and some quite dusty. after looking around for an hour i was already tired and wanted to sleep lol, but h&r love books so much they continued to look at more books lol. as for me, i just was their trolley, just sittting there and lookning after the books, as i am really not that much of a book fan, but i did buy a few books for l as requested.. i am amazed at how much people love books, that they could stay there for more than 3 hours to just look at books... haha, the passions that some poeple have.. for me i think i rather be baking or cooking... or sleeping haha.. or desiging some stuff.. like brochures or posters. i guess it all comes down to what you as an individual like to do in your free time, and some people well just like to read books. it was really funny cos, there was a guy who was kinda like the announcements guy, he would like just be kinda promoting certain books and stuff and was like the guy to go to if u lost your mom or dad after been too engrossed in searching for books.
There was one funny incident that happened i think someone must've been soooo engrossed in looknig at books tat their family had to page him/her and not only once but 3 times! haha...
the announcement guy (Who was dressed up like those tour guides in the jungle) was saying "your family is waiting for you at the counter" and then the 2nd one followed... "your family is waiing for you in the seating area or something like that i cant remember... and then "your family has gone to the car, dont worry they havent left without you they are just waiting for u in the car".... lol it was SO FUNNY...i was really tempted to do that to h&r haha.. just for laughs sake but i didnt.. darn i should've.

Went to see state of Play too, it was pretty good. intense, and confusing but i liked it. i dont like russell crowe though. and i cant understand why some ppl think he is really sexy.

Anyway, with less than 3 months to go for l&j's wedding, i have some SERIOUS shedding of fat to do.......... and its even tougher with this cold weather. how do people find motivation to exercise man, i really wish i had that motivation. i kinda really need it now..
so im back on a diet. I can only eat well in the weekends, and week days will be very mundane boring food for dinner such as JUICE or maybe just vegetables and eggs............ the sacrificies you have to make to be thin! sigh! but i think its worth it, yet i dont know if i can get rid of all the fat in my body.
i think everyone put on weight, looknig back to past photos, i can reallyyyyy see how much weight I HAVE put on and others too lol.. its depressing to see. but i must loose at least 3-5kg before october.. This is the heaviest i've ever been in my life.... its really really bad.
i love food too much, its just always in mind that i want to eat.. this love for food needs to stop immediatleyyyyy!!! i must get back to my old weight!!!!

i even wanted to go on Lite n easy, but it is so expensive. d recommmened Jenny craig in which that reminds me to go and check out thier program i may have to join. haha

Words do no justice to what i am saying , photos they just tell a different story altogheter..


This is me like a few years ago, i think 3 or 4 years....................... OMG.

and this is me now =(


the difference is quite shocking is it not? haha... oh boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
anyway my goal is to make it back to picture number 1.. I must!!!!

the only people that i know who have remained the same till this day are ee lee and lizhi.
everyone else, sorry to say has gone slimmer or put on weight..........

haha, i think age does that to us, and i think now as we are older, our metabolism is gona get slower and slower, therefore making it harder and harder to loose weight!!!