i deleted heaps of people from my msn list a few months ago, around 100 to be exact.
as i was staring at my msn list tonight, i saw some names tat i find to amuse me , as in, these people want to express their emotions for all to see... ie:
"im sorry baby, im sorry i never meant to hurt you - oh problems surround me"................
sometimes i wonder if they are writing it for attention or what? The need to seek attention of others to say oh wow, whats up with him/her...
then u ask them are u ok, wats wrong, and they say 'oh nothing' or 'i cant say'... then why the heck do u even wana write it there?!?!?
sometimes i really couldnt understand at all............ write your emotions out on msn but then when ppl ask u dont wana tell, thats just really seeking for darn right attention.
call it been expressive if you may, and expression is great, but not to the point where u are seeking attention on msn out of all places.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
` random crap
ohhhh, december, where art thou??????????????????????
please faster appear..
another additional wedding has been added onto the ever growing number of weddings to attend this year! Total of 4 or 5 now stands.
i was sick today i stayed home and had a great time, i woke up feeling like crap (headache, blocked nose etcetcetc), i then woke up again, did some laundry, then went to nap again, loitered ard, had lunch, napped again, cleaned a bit, napped again. oh it was a very eventful day if only all days could be like that!!!
when ever im alone, and at home, i reminicse alot, about the past and about memories. i looked at so many old photos today and each photo brought a story behind it.
i saw photos of singapore and i missed it so much!!! i miss its smell, its busyness and i miss its food and its hdb flats and hawker centres and hokkien mee , how i cant wait to go in december, to reunite my self with all these things!!!
at some point of life, u realise who u want in your life, u realise who u could so easily delete out of your life and who you want to keep forever. at some point of time i think its hard to make close frends, and maybe sometimes i coudlnt be bothered anymore. im content for the time been.
i watched slumdog millionare, it was hell good. i was shocked to be honest, i was like oh crap, an indian movie, im going to hate it, cos to be honest im not a big fan of indians haha, but after watching it, it totally changed my whole perspective on them!!! so now, im not saying i Love indians but i think they are pretty cool :)
There are some things in life in which i think, "WAT IF" like what if i didnt wait for so long to make a move, would i have this person now? what if i did things this way, or that. sometimes i do regret and i tink i shuld've made that initiative at times, but its too late now.
There are also many things in my life which i have experienced,, and of course the things are all not good, but still i did them anyway. but to be honest i have no regrets about what i;'ve done, i truly believe life is an experience, and even though im a Christ Follower, i've been able to experience things to a great degree before realy commiting my life to Him, or i've just fallen heaps of times. which is not good either, but im glad i've done what i've done, becos if not i'd never be able to know. life is all about experiences, whether it be trying a new thing out, or bungy jumping, to doing someting you are really afraid of. whatever i've done, I have no regrets!
i think i reminicse too much on the past. way too much, to the extent where i sit there and think of those happier times in life, those good times when all frends were here and we had such a blast. things have no doubt changed and i and their lifes have completley taken a different direction but no matter wat we are all close at heart. when i look at photos, i can stare at a photo for more than 10 mins, becos i truly believe each photos has a story to tell, tats why i think i can sit tehre for ages and just LOOK at 1 photo...haha
sometimes i know i shudlnt complain too much about my life, cos when i compare it to some less fortunate people, my life is pretty alright. but im just another one of those unsatisfied humans, looking for that wee bit more in life. arent we all..
well, its monday again, antoher week till february ends. hooray.
please faster appear..
another additional wedding has been added onto the ever growing number of weddings to attend this year! Total of 4 or 5 now stands.
i was sick today i stayed home and had a great time, i woke up feeling like crap (headache, blocked nose etcetcetc), i then woke up again, did some laundry, then went to nap again, loitered ard, had lunch, napped again, cleaned a bit, napped again. oh it was a very eventful day if only all days could be like that!!!
when ever im alone, and at home, i reminicse alot, about the past and about memories. i looked at so many old photos today and each photo brought a story behind it.
i saw photos of singapore and i missed it so much!!! i miss its smell, its busyness and i miss its food and its hdb flats and hawker centres and hokkien mee , how i cant wait to go in december, to reunite my self with all these things!!!
at some point of life, u realise who u want in your life, u realise who u could so easily delete out of your life and who you want to keep forever. at some point of time i think its hard to make close frends, and maybe sometimes i coudlnt be bothered anymore. im content for the time been.
i watched slumdog millionare, it was hell good. i was shocked to be honest, i was like oh crap, an indian movie, im going to hate it, cos to be honest im not a big fan of indians haha, but after watching it, it totally changed my whole perspective on them!!! so now, im not saying i Love indians but i think they are pretty cool :)
There are some things in life in which i think, "WAT IF" like what if i didnt wait for so long to make a move, would i have this person now? what if i did things this way, or that. sometimes i do regret and i tink i shuld've made that initiative at times, but its too late now.
There are also many things in my life which i have experienced,, and of course the things are all not good, but still i did them anyway. but to be honest i have no regrets about what i;'ve done, i truly believe life is an experience, and even though im a Christ Follower, i've been able to experience things to a great degree before realy commiting my life to Him, or i've just fallen heaps of times. which is not good either, but im glad i've done what i've done, becos if not i'd never be able to know. life is all about experiences, whether it be trying a new thing out, or bungy jumping, to doing someting you are really afraid of. whatever i've done, I have no regrets!
i think i reminicse too much on the past. way too much, to the extent where i sit there and think of those happier times in life, those good times when all frends were here and we had such a blast. things have no doubt changed and i and their lifes have completley taken a different direction but no matter wat we are all close at heart. when i look at photos, i can stare at a photo for more than 10 mins, becos i truly believe each photos has a story to tell, tats why i think i can sit tehre for ages and just LOOK at 1 photo...haha
sometimes i know i shudlnt complain too much about my life, cos when i compare it to some less fortunate people, my life is pretty alright. but im just another one of those unsatisfied humans, looking for that wee bit more in life. arent we all..
well, its monday again, antoher week till february ends. hooray.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
` I miss brisbane
although i live in brisbane itself, i miss the city every now and then... as we all know brisbane is such a huge place, and i live a good 30 mins drive away from it, (which is KINDA neear i guess) haha but when u dont really have a need to go to the city often, well you just dont go.... go to just stare at the city meh?
anyway ever since i started working in sunnybank hills, living in acacia ridge, and all my frends and family been in the south side of brisbane, why the heck would i need to ever step foot in the city again? yes it is true, i have become a city dweller, to a country bumpkin. haha, i hardly ever go to the city, the last time i went was on boxing day. and now it's february and i havent been. last year i didnt go to the city at all, my first time was when PL came.
funny to think that i used to live IN the city, roamed the city every night, and surroundings........... oh i really miss it so much....i miss walking along the riversdie, staring at the river , the bridge and the people. i miss walking to queen st mall to meet people for coffee or dessert... i miss walking to hungry jacks and eating their burgers.. i miss been able to forget i bought something and run down to the 7/11 (which was only 1 min walk from where i lived) , i miss how everything was so convenient, even uni which i dint go often, but i could walk there in 15 mins, or if i was lazy catch the free loop. i miss meeting my frends for lunch on their lunch breaks. i miss the big tall buildings. i miss copenhagen icecream. i miss the crazy buskers in queen st mall, i miss the yum char, next to subway. i miss the myer centre. i miss bubble tea at easy way in queen st mall, i miss big w and woolies in macarthur central. i remember the FIRST ever time i moved to Tank st, i was liivng wit JE, JU and CL. haha we pushed the trolley all the way back with all our groceries. those were the days. i expereinced many good times in that apartment on 30 tank st. i met nearly all my closest frends during that time in tank st. I miss tank st. i miss the building, the apartment, the balcony which i sunbathed on, hung my clothes out, got drunk in, laughed in, cried in. did just about everything in. i miss those friendships that were made, how i wish to turn back time to relive all those happy moments.
brisbane city, i miss you. tank st , number 30 unit 1004, 803, and 804. i miss you all.
This is me, attempting to sunbathe on our lovely lovely balcony!!!!
this is our house hold... i miss this lounge room!! bu hu hu
brisbane city, it is very pretty ...
my much loved room... bunk bed, laptop... great roomieee. too
at southbank lookin over to the city.
the highhh way from the victoria bridge.....
all brings back such sweet , sweet, memories......... oh brisbane, I miss you. I wonder when i will step foot in the city again...... perhaps when another visitor comes?
anyway ever since i started working in sunnybank hills, living in acacia ridge, and all my frends and family been in the south side of brisbane, why the heck would i need to ever step foot in the city again? yes it is true, i have become a city dweller, to a country bumpkin. haha, i hardly ever go to the city, the last time i went was on boxing day. and now it's february and i havent been. last year i didnt go to the city at all, my first time was when PL came.
funny to think that i used to live IN the city, roamed the city every night, and surroundings........... oh i really miss it so much....i miss walking along the riversdie, staring at the river , the bridge and the people. i miss walking to queen st mall to meet people for coffee or dessert... i miss walking to hungry jacks and eating their burgers.. i miss been able to forget i bought something and run down to the 7/11 (which was only 1 min walk from where i lived) , i miss how everything was so convenient, even uni which i dint go often, but i could walk there in 15 mins, or if i was lazy catch the free loop. i miss meeting my frends for lunch on their lunch breaks. i miss the big tall buildings. i miss copenhagen icecream. i miss the crazy buskers in queen st mall, i miss the yum char, next to subway. i miss the myer centre. i miss bubble tea at easy way in queen st mall, i miss big w and woolies in macarthur central. i remember the FIRST ever time i moved to Tank st, i was liivng wit JE, JU and CL. haha we pushed the trolley all the way back with all our groceries. those were the days. i expereinced many good times in that apartment on 30 tank st. i met nearly all my closest frends during that time in tank st. I miss tank st. i miss the building, the apartment, the balcony which i sunbathed on, hung my clothes out, got drunk in, laughed in, cried in. did just about everything in. i miss those friendships that were made, how i wish to turn back time to relive all those happy moments.
brisbane city, i miss you. tank st , number 30 unit 1004, 803, and 804. i miss you all.
this was when we had our christmas dinner in unit 1004...... good food, good friends and good times....
This is me, attempting to sunbathe on our lovely lovely balcony!!!!
this is our house hold... i miss this lounge room!! bu hu hu
brisbane city, it is very pretty ...
my much loved room... bunk bed, laptop... great roomieee. too
at southbank lookin over to the city.
the highhh way from the victoria bridge.....
all brings back such sweet , sweet, memories......... oh brisbane, I miss you. I wonder when i will step foot in the city again...... perhaps when another visitor comes?
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
` hes just not that into you
i am so confused......................
=( i hate it.
anyway, apart from my confusion, i watched " he's just not that into you" tonight. ohhhh boy it was funny as! and it was very relevant to some parts of life, surprisngly! and yet again YY cried. thats movie numero 4!!!! i bet 5 she will also be shedding her crocodile tears :p haha.... it was such a funny and good movie, a few hot guys in it and hot chics! slluts and the rest.
its amazing how smoking overrides cheating in it...... the wife got angrier about smoking than cheating becos the smoking was denied x100000 times...... LYING! LYING! LIARS! i also cant stand liars.
Ben affleck in this movie is such a sweet guy........ too sweet to be true.... i dont think there are many guys like that had his character left in the world today, sigh.... anyway, i think people should go see it, its a total chic flick but its good. i give it a A. its my fav movie for the month of februrary!
Monday, February 16, 2009
.. time heals all wounds
its monday again, monday seems to come by very very quickly...
and how i dread to wake up from my bed every monday, its such a chore, one of the hardest things i do on a monday is waking up.
I also want to take note of the fact that the NICEST feeling in the world, is when you are really busting to go wee or poo, like ultra busting as in you're gonna crap your pants or pee your pants, and u make it to the toilet and u sit down, and you let it all PLOP out into the bowl.. whether it be wee or poo...... the feeling after and flushing the toilet is so great :) haha, honestly, i felt such a great sense of relief when it all plonked out......... theres no greater feeling than to feel relieved, its the best feeling in the world!!!
on a side note, my Lovely yaris "CHAD" sedan silver, was recalled back a few weeks ago, well i think around 1 million plus plus yaris's were called back due to some safety crap, the seatbelts and air bags were not functioning so in an accident i would die. so today my dad helped take my car to get it fixed....
and how i dread to wake up from my bed every monday, its such a chore, one of the hardest things i do on a monday is waking up.
I also want to take note of the fact that the NICEST feeling in the world, is when you are really busting to go wee or poo, like ultra busting as in you're gonna crap your pants or pee your pants, and u make it to the toilet and u sit down, and you let it all PLOP out into the bowl.. whether it be wee or poo...... the feeling after and flushing the toilet is so great :) haha, honestly, i felt such a great sense of relief when it all plonked out......... theres no greater feeling than to feel relieved, its the best feeling in the world!!!
on a side note, my Lovely yaris "CHAD" sedan silver, was recalled back a few weeks ago, well i think around 1 million plus plus yaris's were called back due to some safety crap, the seatbelts and air bags were not functioning so in an accident i would die. so today my dad helped take my car to get it fixed....
my lovely yaris is back to functionability :) . happy for you chad. you still make my heart tingle and im so happy to lay my eyes on your beautiful (but dirty) exterior and interior every day! glad your all working well and fine again. tomrorow i will feed you some unleaded e10, becos it is cheap on tuesday!
nothing much has been happening of late. i've been doing my usual pondering about life and its many problems. I also know and realise everything heals in its own time. relationships are formed at it's own time. everything takes time. no matter how impatient i may be, i need to wait. wait and continue to wait. i slept alot this weekend, excessive amounts but yet i'm still tired and i intend to go to sleep soon too.
on a side note, it was valentines day on the 14th, and i just want to emphasize on its total overrateness, i mean its great to have valentines day, dont hold any thing aganist it (and im not saying this cos i am single) but yeah i had a fulfilling valentines day spent with friends :) buttttt on the other hand it is SO OVERRATED......... every Flower on earth is like x100 more than usual days bears, chocolates all prices sky rocket....... and florists make a killer on this day. I'm sure they can sell a dozen roses for $100 ++. The thing i never understood is why people like flowers (sure they're pretty, and if the other person likes them give it lah) but its a waste of money at the end of the day. i'll only give flowers if the other person really likes them, but to me if someone gets me flowers i will scold them for wasting money. Flowers die in the end. why not get something longer lasting, like treat a meal, or something tat can be used. practicality. valentines is not only for BGR but also friendships too! love goes all around. frends, gfs, bfs everyone! but i believe if u really love your frend or your gf or bf, valentines day should be an every day thing not just on the 14th feb u treat them so nicely, shower them with love, gifts, etc, but make every day a valentines day.
sometimes i wonder why we / i make the efforts we make on certain people. why do we take that extra time to spend with that someone, or why do we continue to make effort to maintain the friendship when clearly the other is not bothering? at the end of the day people get tired, and people give up... people get put off you altogether and move on with their lifes. i think in some cases, thats what i have to do. get up, and move on along. theres only so much love, so much effort and so much time you can give someone. when those actions are not been reciprocated, its indeed the most draining thing in life, and relationships are meant to be full of joy. i'm talking about friendships here too.
what makes someone a great friend? the saying goes, something like if u want to have close frends be one first? i dono lah something like that. to me, friendship is all about giving, not only of material things, but giving of your time, your effort, your energy. its not only about giving, but about trusting that other person, it's about lending that listening ear , its about offering that shoulder to cry on, its about been there not only in the good times but in the bad times. sometimes friendship though is about expecting nothing in return, but of cosure i think we all find that hard to do, even me. but i try not to expect so much from people, cos people fail you. i'll give what i can give. i'll do what i can do, i want my love for my close frends to be boundless and one tat has no end... i'd do anything for some of them. !!! whats life if you haven't really found and cherished those close bonded frendships that you've made, i'd surely regret it if i did not give everyhting; that also sustains in a gf/bf relationship.
relatonships are hard work! to maintain them especially! but i tink its all worth it in the end. God indeed created us all here to be loved by our partners and our friends. and honestly, i couldn't thank Him Enough for the people he's put in my life.
cos they are totally smackerdingimaroo awesome.
Friday, February 13, 2009
` My registered mail was..........
package from malaysia, the land which is truly asia! haha, the land in which i love!!!!!!! how nice to receive packages from Malaysia isnt it?! haha
anyway, the registered mail was no bomb, no parking ticket no fines :) they were in fact earrings and bracelets... pretty earrings and bracelets i may add!
becos im not one that likes all this girly accessories, i was shocked to even like the bracelets !!!
contary to popular belief, wow i loved them!!! PL complained to me i bought too many not so nice beads, and too many beads, but in the end they have turned out to be beautiful bracelets! haha!
anyway, i tink these bracelets are very nice and the earrings too! and M couldn't agree with me more, in fact she also wanted a bracelet toooo, we can share lah k m? haha..
anyway here are the photos, because words do not do justice, does it!?
they are very niceeee .... even for a person lke me........ hehe :)
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
` the comin of G.
this is a much pondered upon topic and a topic that could possibly never end.
when is God coming back to take us all to heaven?
as i talked to a bro tonight for about 2 hours on This GOd topic it really struck me time and time again,am i living life on earth as how God would want me to?? and noo, no im not!!!
every day i sin, time and time again, i sin the same sins all over again!!! why do i tink the thoughts i thnk? again n again.. only by His grace i am saved.
at the end of the day if we did not repent of our sins, they will be plastered all on a white board for the world to see... so i intend to clear those sins by the time Jesus comes back! so i should start now by daily confessing them to Him. some sins even i dont know i commit so i need to really ask God what they are and ask for His forgiveness....
some times i wonder why im not so passionate, not so on fire for God.
its because i am too complacent in my life. complacency, sucks. and im in it! i need to get out of it. immediately.
God is omi present and omi potent, and satan is.. a word in which i have forgotton :( starts wit u, ubiquriku. nope i dono anyway it means satan is fast and everywhere, attacking us at any moment of the day. and Yes, i am attacked daily!
I dono, but i really hope to live my life, one full of purpose for Him. today after talking to my friend, i am convicted yet again!!! my problem is im not consistent. i must pray for consistency.
my problem is i continue to sin time and time again.... my problem is i cant talk to anyone about some stuff, only God which i need to solve in order to move on.
are we all ready for the coming of Christ? or are we just merely hanging on..... will we be lured into the traps of the Anti Christ before the coming of the real Jesus Christ??? will we fall into the traps of greed, and will we take what this Anti Christ have to offer; all the money in the world, fortunes and fames,, everything that u could possibly ask for? or will be stand firm in our Faith knowing that Jesus Christ is the only way to heaven!?
There are so many signs that end time is coming soon... sometimes i do really fear it. but i guess its good cos it makes me want to get my life back on track. I want to dwell in the presence of God again and soak in it, i want Him to talk to me, to tell me things i dont know.. i just wanna get closer to Him.
during praise and worship, sometimes do we lift our hands up for the sake of it , or are we really surrendering all to God? when we sing " ALL I NEED IS YOU LORD " or " BREAK MY HEART FOR WHAT BREAKS YOURS EVERYTING I AM FOR YOUR KINGDOM's CAUSE" do we mean all the words that we sing??? and yessss, i can admit that, every time i sing those specific lyrics, of cousre i dont mean them wit all my heart, how can the Lord be all i need? how can i feel the breaks of His heart in mine, how can i give everything to His Kingdom? but yet, i sing wit every ounce in my body those words is becos, tat is where i want to be. i want to be able to stand firm and declare All i need is HIM. i believe in time, i will feel tat way, and i will say it with conviction! even though we may not mean it i really believe tat if our heart says yes lord, tats where i aim to be, tats all that matters... not for the sake of singing it, but everytime u sing it, u tell Him tat yes, i want to want you ONLY.
my heart is after God. but i am human. i am very very weak. i fall time n time again. He always picks me up time after time. but i continue to fall..
but i do love Him, wholeheartedly. i'm just trapped sometimes by satan. and his evil tricks.
but mould me, and use me as you may. i will continue to seek You always.
when is God coming back to take us all to heaven?
as i talked to a bro tonight for about 2 hours on This GOd topic it really struck me time and time again,am i living life on earth as how God would want me to?? and noo, no im not!!!
every day i sin, time and time again, i sin the same sins all over again!!! why do i tink the thoughts i thnk? again n again.. only by His grace i am saved.
at the end of the day if we did not repent of our sins, they will be plastered all on a white board for the world to see... so i intend to clear those sins by the time Jesus comes back! so i should start now by daily confessing them to Him. some sins even i dont know i commit so i need to really ask God what they are and ask for His forgiveness....
some times i wonder why im not so passionate, not so on fire for God.
its because i am too complacent in my life. complacency, sucks. and im in it! i need to get out of it. immediately.
God is omi present and omi potent, and satan is.. a word in which i have forgotton :( starts wit u, ubiquriku. nope i dono anyway it means satan is fast and everywhere, attacking us at any moment of the day. and Yes, i am attacked daily!
I dono, but i really hope to live my life, one full of purpose for Him. today after talking to my friend, i am convicted yet again!!! my problem is im not consistent. i must pray for consistency.
my problem is i continue to sin time and time again.... my problem is i cant talk to anyone about some stuff, only God which i need to solve in order to move on.
are we all ready for the coming of Christ? or are we just merely hanging on..... will we be lured into the traps of the Anti Christ before the coming of the real Jesus Christ??? will we fall into the traps of greed, and will we take what this Anti Christ have to offer; all the money in the world, fortunes and fames,, everything that u could possibly ask for? or will be stand firm in our Faith knowing that Jesus Christ is the only way to heaven!?
There are so many signs that end time is coming soon... sometimes i do really fear it. but i guess its good cos it makes me want to get my life back on track. I want to dwell in the presence of God again and soak in it, i want Him to talk to me, to tell me things i dont know.. i just wanna get closer to Him.
during praise and worship, sometimes do we lift our hands up for the sake of it , or are we really surrendering all to God? when we sing " ALL I NEED IS YOU LORD " or " BREAK MY HEART FOR WHAT BREAKS YOURS EVERYTING I AM FOR YOUR KINGDOM's CAUSE" do we mean all the words that we sing??? and yessss, i can admit that, every time i sing those specific lyrics, of cousre i dont mean them wit all my heart, how can the Lord be all i need? how can i feel the breaks of His heart in mine, how can i give everything to His Kingdom? but yet, i sing wit every ounce in my body those words is becos, tat is where i want to be. i want to be able to stand firm and declare All i need is HIM. i believe in time, i will feel tat way, and i will say it with conviction! even though we may not mean it i really believe tat if our heart says yes lord, tats where i aim to be, tats all that matters... not for the sake of singing it, but everytime u sing it, u tell Him tat yes, i want to want you ONLY.
my heart is after God. but i am human. i am very very weak. i fall time n time again. He always picks me up time after time. but i continue to fall..
but i do love Him, wholeheartedly. i'm just trapped sometimes by satan. and his evil tricks.
but mould me, and use me as you may. i will continue to seek You always.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
` hell on earth.. as they say
yes, the news has been broadcasting hell on earth in australia, becos of the bush fires that have been happening of late.
victoria has had the worst bush fires in the history of fires in australia, up to now, 200 people have died....... goodness me. they are doing all these sort of appeals and stuff to help re build these townships and stuff.
its very sad acutally, but i dont relaly feel all that much haha... im sadddened by it but not that sad..as in i wouldnt cry tears for them, just yet. but sad.
i just coudlnt really understand how people could die in fires, when u see the fire, woudlnt u just run, run , run?! instead they stayed, stayed, stayed?!? i guess i would as well, to grab all my belongings. but yeah, apparently in USA when ur house is on fire, its by law that u must immediately evacuate and take nothing, but here in australia, they give u the right to get stuff from your home... i guess they could be soon changing that law.
makes me wonder what the world is coming to....... all the war goin on in the world, the economic crisis of the world (AND YET still people are spending like crazy, booking air asia flights still..? haha.... super cheap btw)..... we are in crisis yet people are still travelling, spending money like no tomorrow and yes this includes myself..... such a place to be in. 2009 is gona be one hell of a journey i reckon. sometimes i felt that im not living in a reality, that all these things are just one big fat dream, but then i am awake.
sometimes i think if im just dreaming even if im awake - if u get wt i mean. sometimes i think my life is just one big dream.... ha ha,but then i guess this is wen im way too free to think way too much.. and must be emoing soon i think...
i have registered mail to collect tomrorow i am really scared its a bill or a parking fine or speeding ticket or something o.O....
i exercised today after 1 week of NO exercise WHAT SO EVER. and boy did i die........... at the last 2 minutes i felt shortness of breath... and everything.. my whole world wanted to cave in, and i wanted to curl up and die. haha gosh, exercise is plain torture. beauty is pain as they say!
i sweated like no other. and i only managed to loose 90 calories. which is jack all.. haiz, tomorwo again another battle with the exercise machine..... 8kg is not going to come off easy especially when im this addicted to food!!!!
the heat is a killer too. i wish winter to be upon us soon.. i cant survive in this heat.. typing, also makes me feel hot n sweaty.
anyway, my heart really goes out to those families who lost thier homes and to those that lost their loved ones, tat is the greatest devestation of all... loosing those that u love and hold most dearly to your heart. rest in peace.
victoria has had the worst bush fires in the history of fires in australia, up to now, 200 people have died....... goodness me. they are doing all these sort of appeals and stuff to help re build these townships and stuff.
its very sad acutally, but i dont relaly feel all that much haha... im sadddened by it but not that sad..as in i wouldnt cry tears for them, just yet. but sad.
i just coudlnt really understand how people could die in fires, when u see the fire, woudlnt u just run, run , run?! instead they stayed, stayed, stayed?!? i guess i would as well, to grab all my belongings. but yeah, apparently in USA when ur house is on fire, its by law that u must immediately evacuate and take nothing, but here in australia, they give u the right to get stuff from your home... i guess they could be soon changing that law.
makes me wonder what the world is coming to....... all the war goin on in the world, the economic crisis of the world (AND YET still people are spending like crazy, booking air asia flights still..? haha.... super cheap btw)..... we are in crisis yet people are still travelling, spending money like no tomorrow and yes this includes myself..... such a place to be in. 2009 is gona be one hell of a journey i reckon. sometimes i felt that im not living in a reality, that all these things are just one big fat dream, but then i am awake.
sometimes i think if im just dreaming even if im awake - if u get wt i mean. sometimes i think my life is just one big dream.... ha ha,but then i guess this is wen im way too free to think way too much.. and must be emoing soon i think...
i have registered mail to collect tomrorow i am really scared its a bill or a parking fine or speeding ticket or something o.O....
i exercised today after 1 week of NO exercise WHAT SO EVER. and boy did i die........... at the last 2 minutes i felt shortness of breath... and everything.. my whole world wanted to cave in, and i wanted to curl up and die. haha gosh, exercise is plain torture. beauty is pain as they say!
i sweated like no other. and i only managed to loose 90 calories. which is jack all.. haiz, tomorwo again another battle with the exercise machine..... 8kg is not going to come off easy especially when im this addicted to food!!!!
the heat is a killer too. i wish winter to be upon us soon.. i cant survive in this heat.. typing, also makes me feel hot n sweaty.
anyway, my heart really goes out to those families who lost thier homes and to those that lost their loved ones, tat is the greatest devestation of all... loosing those that u love and hold most dearly to your heart. rest in peace.
Monday, February 9, 2009
` oh what a feeling: monday
Monday has come... as usual i was feeling so depressed last night as my head hit the pillow.. utterly gutted that the weekend had gone yet again in a blink of an eye.
last week has been very hectic, out everyday bringing the cousin and auntie around brisbane, but im sure they had a good old time...
to sum up whats been going on during the week................
some lunatic at the traffic light decided he wanted to switch lanes and happily bumped the bumper of my car, which i felt but he drove off to fast and now its scratched wit some red/blue marks from his car, i wanted to murder him, but how??! grrr, so angry lah.. Irresponsible citizens of brisbane, just running away from what u did............
took auntie and cousin to mt cootha, freestyler, eat fish n chips, go here go there, go southbank, had bbq at home... it was a week of eating non stop........... so this week i go back to been a rabbit and eating my veges and sangas and all things healthy and getting back into the exercise regime again....- which will be oh so challenging.....
chinese new year has ended, managed to claim a few ang pows hahha....
went to alvin's place for bbq in the weekend and boy o boy, the house is super duper nice........ the kitchen is to die for, i could live in it.......... sigh. photos are on face book for any interested to see the lovely lovely house of mr vun and family..
found out that a so called "friend" to many has turned into an agressive homo, threating antoher frend by saying they will shut down thier website, hacked into their email, and many other threats........... what has the world come to... those that you know, are simply not those you know any more.. hence be careful even with friends, sometimes their true colours haven't shone yet, but after 5 years of knowing someone........... its scary to be honest. i really dont know what to say about that.... sad and disappointed.
its only the 9th of februrary im waiting for the end of april to come..
no matter what, all friendships take its due course to change direction in life. no matter the closeness and the distance you are apart has its tolls on everyone. people change, priorities change, people move on. - hold on to friendships with ease, not tightly anymore.
my teeth are going to be 1 tooth crooked from now. i finally got my new $300 fricking bucks retainer done and am now religiously wearing it every night without fail... i dont want my teeth to move yet again...... its painful and in the mornings i have a bit of trouble getting it out of my mouth! and of course there is the occasional bleed every morning.. so now i need to wake up a bit earlier to wash the retainer, clean it, dry it, put it back in it's container.. thats 10 minutes out of my sleep time gone!
i doubt we'll be getting the $950.
i want to go to singapore for 4 days, if i can get a cheap air asia free ticket sale that starts tomrorow......... shussssssssssssssh dont tell people, cos the site will become very jammed... fingers crosssed i can get it...
i got 2 new mosquitto bites this weekend, i hate them, thney love my blood too much!! its so itchy and red and ugly. thats another 2 additional scars to add to the ever growing number of scars on my body. quadruple sigh...........
i miss my cousin......... she is so full of life! laughing at absolutely EVERYTHING...... i miss her laugh! and she hates school... dreadfully hates school.. i see we are very simliar in that sense.
victoria is having huge huge fires......... while queensland is having floods. economy is worsening... everything seems to be on the down fall.. which means, end of the world perhaps? the whole world seems to be deteriorating.... wonder what will happen......
work is boring...... death appears every morning........ want to do something more fun and exciting, acutually really want to work at the airport at the desk checking in peoples luggages hahah.. the thought of seeing people going, coming is a good feeling........ i think i love airports.
need to book my flight in march/april to malaysia/singapore in december. i think i will take singapore air.
when's the next public holiday??? super sien at the moment............
when all things are looking grim
sometimes, u just gotta turn to Him.
last week has been very hectic, out everyday bringing the cousin and auntie around brisbane, but im sure they had a good old time...
to sum up whats been going on during the week................
some lunatic at the traffic light decided he wanted to switch lanes and happily bumped the bumper of my car, which i felt but he drove off to fast and now its scratched wit some red/blue marks from his car, i wanted to murder him, but how??! grrr, so angry lah.. Irresponsible citizens of brisbane, just running away from what u did............
took auntie and cousin to mt cootha, freestyler, eat fish n chips, go here go there, go southbank, had bbq at home... it was a week of eating non stop........... so this week i go back to been a rabbit and eating my veges and sangas and all things healthy and getting back into the exercise regime again....- which will be oh so challenging.....
chinese new year has ended, managed to claim a few ang pows hahha....
went to alvin's place for bbq in the weekend and boy o boy, the house is super duper nice........ the kitchen is to die for, i could live in it.......... sigh. photos are on face book for any interested to see the lovely lovely house of mr vun and family..
found out that a so called "friend" to many has turned into an agressive homo, threating antoher frend by saying they will shut down thier website, hacked into their email, and many other threats........... what has the world come to... those that you know, are simply not those you know any more.. hence be careful even with friends, sometimes their true colours haven't shone yet, but after 5 years of knowing someone........... its scary to be honest. i really dont know what to say about that.... sad and disappointed.
its only the 9th of februrary im waiting for the end of april to come..
no matter what, all friendships take its due course to change direction in life. no matter the closeness and the distance you are apart has its tolls on everyone. people change, priorities change, people move on. - hold on to friendships with ease, not tightly anymore.
my teeth are going to be 1 tooth crooked from now. i finally got my new $300 fricking bucks retainer done and am now religiously wearing it every night without fail... i dont want my teeth to move yet again...... its painful and in the mornings i have a bit of trouble getting it out of my mouth! and of course there is the occasional bleed every morning.. so now i need to wake up a bit earlier to wash the retainer, clean it, dry it, put it back in it's container.. thats 10 minutes out of my sleep time gone!
i doubt we'll be getting the $950.
i want to go to singapore for 4 days, if i can get a cheap air asia free ticket sale that starts tomrorow......... shussssssssssssssh dont tell people, cos the site will become very jammed... fingers crosssed i can get it...
i got 2 new mosquitto bites this weekend, i hate them, thney love my blood too much!! its so itchy and red and ugly. thats another 2 additional scars to add to the ever growing number of scars on my body. quadruple sigh...........
i miss my cousin......... she is so full of life! laughing at absolutely EVERYTHING...... i miss her laugh! and she hates school... dreadfully hates school.. i see we are very simliar in that sense.
victoria is having huge huge fires......... while queensland is having floods. economy is worsening... everything seems to be on the down fall.. which means, end of the world perhaps? the whole world seems to be deteriorating.... wonder what will happen......
work is boring...... death appears every morning........ want to do something more fun and exciting, acutually really want to work at the airport at the desk checking in peoples luggages hahah.. the thought of seeing people going, coming is a good feeling........ i think i love airports.
need to book my flight in march/april to malaysia/singapore in december. i think i will take singapore air.
when's the next public holiday??? super sien at the moment............
when all things are looking grim
sometimes, u just gotta turn to Him.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
` can y0u hear me. . .
Hear my prayer
Hear my cry
Don’t let me pass you by
The devil is indeed sly
Knowing our every weakness
He attacks in his disguise
Don’t let him win the number one prize
He’s full of lies
Wont you hear my heart cry
Its him i truly despise
Evil are you
That walks through our lives
You pierce us with your sharp knives
You steal our hearts and take our lives
Why should we live our life in fear
When our God is here
Wont you draw near
He will wipe away your every tear
Those feelings will all disappear
Emotions aside
There’s nothing from Him that you can hide
Don’t just brush him to one side
Oh, how i’ve tried
The insides of me have nearly died
Don’t be stubborn and hold on to your pride
For He is your only guide
It cuts me deep within
How can you toss this all to the bin
My head is in such a spin
I am confused and i am lost
And i think i just wanna get off
But He offers His open arms to me
As far as the eye can see
He’s the only key
That will set my heart free
And i get down on bended knee
& worship Thee.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
` I see your true colours shining through
reminds me of the song " i see your true colours shining through" but that song is good, seeing someones true colours is not.
anyway, firstly i would like to say, WAHOOO HALF OF US ARE $950 RICHER in April, due to the new stimulus package, Kevin Rudd has so generously given 8.7 million australians $950 to kick start the economyyyy.... i say bring it on, thanks muchly, KevinRuddy! I think my mom will get $950 x 2, due to my brother... as they are also giving out back to school packs per child of $950! wahoo! talk about freee money, like winning the lotto!!!! its great. i can pay my car insurance, and pay for my flight...pay for other stuff... if only the money could multiple!!!
anyway back to seeing people's true colours........... i really began to see 2 people's true colours these few weeks......... knowing them for such a long time (maybe over 5 years or more), their true colours have shone so brightly, blinding me instantly............
sometimes you think you know someone very well, but in fact you dont.. i feel quite sad by the fact that they are tis way.... the way people treat you when they know you dont feel for them in that way... and when they say that theyre not out to make peoples life miserable, but theyre there to help... oh pls shut up..... u then begin to realise wow, a person can change 180 degrees, north, south, east and west. people become ruder, call you names, and are just darn right ass holes.. after knowing you for such a long time, you are i confiRM, all Talk and No action. your words mean nothing, they are just words. thats why i truly think that people can talk the talk but can they walk the walk? honestly, it saddens my heart that i know people like this. in front of you they treat you so nicely, but behind your back they're full on gossiping about you, how your this and your that.... what makes it worse is that you've known them for so long, and you already had a perception of who they are and what they were like.. and now that perception is totally distorted...
i just had enough of these kinda people. and in a few months i really want nothing to do wit you again..........
people fail you, time and time again............... so let me and let us all not place any hope and expectation on any human on this earth, cos we are just setting ourselfs up for a fall.
trust no one but your self and God, and maybe a few close friends.
people are weak, im weak. but i dont believe any one needs to put up wit any of this kinda crap from anyone....these people we could have less of in the world.
fake people get outta my sight
i'll kick your asses with all of my might
i'll put up a good fight
you won't see me been polite
so please, just get out of my sight, alright?
anyway, firstly i would like to say, WAHOOO HALF OF US ARE $950 RICHER in April, due to the new stimulus package, Kevin Rudd has so generously given 8.7 million australians $950 to kick start the economyyyy.... i say bring it on, thanks muchly, KevinRuddy! I think my mom will get $950 x 2, due to my brother... as they are also giving out back to school packs per child of $950! wahoo! talk about freee money, like winning the lotto!!!! its great. i can pay my car insurance, and pay for my flight...pay for other stuff... if only the money could multiple!!!
anyway back to seeing people's true colours........... i really began to see 2 people's true colours these few weeks......... knowing them for such a long time (maybe over 5 years or more), their true colours have shone so brightly, blinding me instantly............
sometimes you think you know someone very well, but in fact you dont.. i feel quite sad by the fact that they are tis way.... the way people treat you when they know you dont feel for them in that way... and when they say that theyre not out to make peoples life miserable, but theyre there to help... oh pls shut up..... u then begin to realise wow, a person can change 180 degrees, north, south, east and west. people become ruder, call you names, and are just darn right ass holes.. after knowing you for such a long time, you are i confiRM, all Talk and No action. your words mean nothing, they are just words. thats why i truly think that people can talk the talk but can they walk the walk? honestly, it saddens my heart that i know people like this. in front of you they treat you so nicely, but behind your back they're full on gossiping about you, how your this and your that.... what makes it worse is that you've known them for so long, and you already had a perception of who they are and what they were like.. and now that perception is totally distorted...
i just had enough of these kinda people. and in a few months i really want nothing to do wit you again..........
people fail you, time and time again............... so let me and let us all not place any hope and expectation on any human on this earth, cos we are just setting ourselfs up for a fall.
trust no one but your self and God, and maybe a few close friends.
people are weak, im weak. but i dont believe any one needs to put up wit any of this kinda crap from anyone....these people we could have less of in the world.
fake people get outta my sight
i'll kick your asses with all of my might
i'll put up a good fight
you won't see me been polite
so please, just get out of my sight, alright?
Monday, February 2, 2009
` A time to vent
supposidly was suppose to meet this friend in Gold coast on saturday night, had to get something from him to pass to another friend.. so this friend calls me and asks where i am, and i say im at surfers then i ask when he can come meet me to pass the stuff to me then he says he has dinner plans etc and then i said ok, just ring me when you're done and you can come to the hotel to pass it to me.
and he agrees...
around 10 i wait, im gettin tired...
around 11 i wait again then i decide to call him,
fone happens to be off!
so around 1155pm, i of cousre fall asleep.............. not one SMS, fone call till today to say WHY he did not come, WHY he did not call?!?!?! wat the heck............. seriously i have had enough of unreliable people who dont call back, dont sms back........ WHY DO U OWN MOBILE PHONES............ ????? dont bother... if u can 't even ring to tell the person you cant make it...... is it that hard to say sorry i cant make it.. ?????
i truly have had enough of such people. no respect and no courtesy to just say 'i cant make it and a sorry.'
utterly disappointed.
and he agrees...
around 10 i wait, im gettin tired...
around 11 i wait again then i decide to call him,
fone happens to be off!
so around 1155pm, i of cousre fall asleep.............. not one SMS, fone call till today to say WHY he did not come, WHY he did not call?!?!?! wat the heck............. seriously i have had enough of unreliable people who dont call back, dont sms back........ WHY DO U OWN MOBILE PHONES............ ????? dont bother... if u can 't even ring to tell the person you cant make it...... is it that hard to say sorry i cant make it.. ?????
i truly have had enough of such people. no respect and no courtesy to just say 'i cant make it and a sorry.'
utterly disappointed.
` the monday blues
i detest monday with all my heart and soul. monday makes me very depressed.
what a weekend it's been, i never felt so tired in my life when i got back yesterday from the gold coast. on the drive back to brisbane i literally closed my eyes and half slept half drove. i was that tired. when i came back i jumped into and onto the bed and slept..
nadal won the australian open - BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU him
it was a good weekend, had heaps of fun, but never going to go to sea world or any world for that matter again, its a waste of time and money i felt. we only stayed there for 3 hours cos we were all superly exhausted...
cousin and me at surfers paradise:
she laughs all the time i didnt even say anything funny, and she laughs, shes a laughing machine man.... and shes grown to be very pretty too!!! woot woot for all those guys trying to chase her... hehe...
what annoys me most is that i ate alot, man life is meant to be enjoyed and here i am feeling so guilty about eating so much, even though i think i didnt really eat THAT much but i ate in moderation i still feel like a beached whale :(. without all my favourite foods by my side, (my hokkien mee, my rice, my meats) i feel some part of me is missing............. how pathetic it is, that food is such a big part of my life. I am so happy when i'm eating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i need to over come this food bondage. no more will i love food. but it will be very hard, becos me and food, began our lovely relationship years ago! i dont know if i can let you go yet...............
honestly, i hate monday. i am just looking forward to friday, and thats another 4 days to go. the mundane boring unexciting routines of life has begun... another 10 more months till freedom and till my holiday.
i wish i owned an apartment at the gold coasd and i'd sip on cocktails all afternoon, and do nothing all day long haha..
the sadness in life, we over come but the sadness always appears again and again, the happy times in life go by so fast, and the memories they linger on for ever, even those you dont want to remember, and the emotions attack us daily.
goodbye australia.
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